This was the month and I have completed my task. I figured out how to roll over from my back to my tummy so, I can just keep rolling and rolling and rolling now. It''s great, until I get to something that keeps me from rolling. Hmm, I''m still trying to figure out this crawling thing but, I might get that done in the next couple weeks too. Oh well, back to watching mommy and daddy pack up more stuff. Daddy said the only reason people live in big houses, is just to have a place to put their stuff. If everyone would just keep only a little bit of stuff, they wouldn''t need big houses. Well, I''m gonna need a huge house for all my stuff a.k.a. toys. Alright, I gotta roll on out of here.
Okay, if things go on schedule, we''ll be leaving Orlando toward the end of October. Yep, we''re moving out to the country, back in Louisiana. Daddy said something about, its where the water is still dipped up in buckets and sunshine is brought in via barrell daily. He also said that if sunshine wasn''t brought out each day, it would be total darkness. Mommy said that its not true but, daddy isn''t real excited about moving back, where he grew up. Mommy is excited, as she wil have a little bit bigger house and away from the city life. Me, I just don''t care, as long as I have toys and food. Seriously, what else could a boy want, excluding girls. Daddy said, girls ain''t nothin'' but trouble but, I think he is singing a song with his headphones on. Mommy said it was something to do with hits of the 80''s. Mommy is laughing at daddy right now.
Alright, it looks like I''m back growing again. I guess my body was just taking time out, to enjoy the good life. I''m up to 17 lbs 10 ounces and still not very tall. Mommy said, if daddy has anything to do with my length, i''m going to be a contestant in the tiny wrestling federation TWF. Personally, I don''t find that really funny at all but, daddy is laughing his boody off. Alright, the doctors said they could try switching me back to a normal formula a little by little. After around 4 days, my poops started having a little blood in it so, we were back to the normal formula. Daddy said we could try again on my first birthday, which I would like to remind everyone is coming in less than 2 months. It''s hard to believe that I''ve been around this long.
Okay, about my birthday gifts. Daddy said I will accept anything laptop, home theater, ipod related and mommy said clothes and toys, would be the best. Something tells me that I should go with what mommy says, daddy was talking about his birthday or something. Let me remind everyone, my daddy will be the big 30 next year. Hhahahahaha, he''s going to whip me for that one but, I''ll get mommy to protect me then. It will be a great 1st birthday but, I just wish I could celebrate it with my baby sister. I love and miss you sis and wish you could be here with me. I''ll always be missing something and hope you will have a party too. I''m gonna eat some food for you too. I won''t be able to eat cake or ice cream probably but, I''ll have some apple sauce for ya.
Well, I look forward to seeing my granny, great grandma, grandpa, and great grandpa, once I get back to Louisiana. November 25 is my birthday, in case anyone forgets. I know I haven''t mentioned that lately but, just wanted to send out a reminder. Hahahah, take care and just wanted to wish Dylin & Skylin a happy belated birthday. Congradulations on turning the big 1. Bye Bye Bye for now.
Ryland: Elmos Friend
P.S. My first tooth is almost here and daddy said I will accept laptops ... nevermind, he is trying to get me to say the wrong stuff again. LOL bye
As expected, my ride was going way to smooth and just knew something had to go wrong. Now, my doctors are telling me that I''m not gaining enough wait. In the last 30 days, I only gained 2 ounces and they are not happy with that. Also, I only grew 1/2 inch but, that was okay with them. It looks like they want me growing out but, don''t care if I grow uuuuuuuup. Mommy told them, I spit up more like a water fountain. Daddy says I hold the record on most outfit changes in one day, something like 25 thousand. It''s really not that many, only about 22 thousand. Althoughe is probably right, I probably do hold the record. Oh yeah, record books, here I come. Anyway, my lung doctor gave me, the RSV shots on Tuesday and they hurt really really really bad.
Many people are asking, when we are moving and if we are stil going back to Louisiana. The answer to that question is yes and we have no idea when we are moving back. Mommy says its just paperwork and paperwork and paperwork. I''ll show them some paperwork, put it uin front of me and I''ll spew all over it. That''ll show them, all they need to know about paperwor Also, want to say thanks to my Grandpa Gary for sending my first tooth metal container and my first hair container. They are metal and have my name scratched in them somehow. Oh well, not sure how it was done but, I like them. Oh yeah, mommy upload a photo of the oil painting that they had done of me. Let me say, its quite h o t t hott. (Smile)
In the last 5 days, I discovered something very very cool. If I want, I can make babytalk noises and hear what I say. I''m not sure what I''m saying but, I am saying something for sure. Daddy decodes it using babytalk 101 but, I think he is capital w wrong. Nobody understands what I''m saying, not even other babies. Mommy even caught me on video jabbering about something, if I remember correctly it had something to do with eating and playing. Then again, what else would I have to talk about. Just wanted to mention, that Grandma Lila hasn''t seen me since July and just wondering if she cares about me anymore (frown/grin)
Okay, I''m still not crawling and the doctors are starting to worry. Mommy contacted my early steps people and going to see if they can help me with some therapy. Maybe, they can get me moving right along these days. I''m tired of laying down and sitting around. I''m a boy on a journey and I need to explore this crazy world. For now, I will just go and mommy didn''t catch me writing this update. HaHa! Oh no, here she comes and I just heard that little beep noise the camera makes. Gotta run now, oh no, I can''t run. Ahhhhhhh ... snap, ... camera ... busted.
Ryland is doing very well these days! We are still dealing with the reflux but, that''s a piece of cake compared to what we could be dealing with. He has decided he has a voice and wants EVERYONE to hear it! GIGGLE He has been going crazy with it for the last few days and I LOVE IT! He is eating stage 2 foods now and getting about 3oz of juice a day. Which he LOVES. He hasn''t been weighed recently but, we have a doc appt. tomorrow so I will update the numbers ASAP! I''m thinking around 19lbs now. I hope this boy has gotten some length on him as well! He isn''t crawling but, I know he would be if he stayed on his belly for longer the 10 sec. I have tried everything under the son to get him to stay on his belly but, he WILL NOT do it. He LOVES to stand though. He is even doing the steps! He is sticking his feet in his mouth and just about everything he gets ahold of. Oh we have no teeth as of today. I keep checking but, nada yet! Hmmm...I think that''s about it. I will update more tomorrow about the doc apppt. Thanks for everyone checking up on our little man! ;)
Ryland: Where In The World Is, Little Ryland Mason
Yep, I''m back with another edition of Ryland says. Stay tuned to your tv, its coming to a disney chanel screen near you. It''s the latest in the hit reality shows, we all watch to see what Ryland will say next. Oh wait, I''m dreaming again, that''s just what it seems like around here, with cameras flashing and parents telling you what to do. Sometimes, I just feel like I''m on the set of an episode of the mickey mouse club. HaHa, lets get on with my update.
First off, let me say that I was finally busted, playing on the internet. Mommy caught me in the act and even got a photo of me typing my sweet Skylin up north an e-mail. I tried to get up and run away but, I remembered that i couldn''t even crawl, muchless get up and run. Oh well, I guess that photo will be up and will expose my true sneakyness. HaHa, thats alright though, mommy still lets me play on the internet, she just installed a babywatch program so, I only can access content from ages 0 to -10 months. Basicly, I can listen to audio clips of hearts beating, swooshing sounds, and pretty much everything that happens during the inside mommy stay. Let''s just say, the internet is BORRRRRRRRRRING, now. Lucky for me, she at least is letting me write my updates still.
Yeah Yeah, I know its been a long time, since my last update but, I have a good reason. Give me a couple minutes and I''ll think of that reason. (5 minutes go by) Oh yeah, I have been growing at a rapid pace and learning to laugh when I am tickled. I''m not sure what they do to my arm pits but, it makes me laugh and laugh and sometimes even pass a little tootaroo. Mommy says she never does anything like that but, daddy said thats not true. Okay, daddy tells me to drop it and keep going now. Alright, here is my big news.
On Tuesday, August 6, 2007, My First Professional Photo Shoot took place. It was taken at kiddiekandids inside babies ''r us. Okay, I''m not sure if anyone has been inside that PLACE but, its like a baby fantasy land, lots of stuff for just babies. Anyway, mommy won''t let me say how much we spent on stuff but, daddy said he is gonna have to take out a second morguage against the house, to pay for it, whatever that means. Mommy already uploaded my photos and hopefully everyone can check them out and hopefully think I did a good job. Then again, if it weren''t for the pictures, I wouldn''t even remember it at all. alright, lets move on.
Okay, I''m still having normal poops, with no blood or bad stuff. I''m weighing in at close to 17.5 pounds and around 27" long. I had a developmental test done in July and they told me that I''m still on tract with normal babies and my other doctor told me I was a little chunky. That''s alright though, I''m only the most wanted baby in show business. Haha, don''t I wish. In a couple weeks, RSV season kicks back in and you know all of us preemies love that time of year. It means shots, shots and more shots, just for us. My daddy said that, it will keep me out of the hospital so, I''ll just agree for now. Also, I had another eye checkup and he said everything still looks absolutely great and my eyes are normal. Well, that''s all my personal health news at the moment. Oh yeah, I have had sweet potatos, squash, carrots, peas, green beans, bananas, peaches, apple sauce, pears, and a McDonald''s Happy Meal. Swoosh, I wish I could have one of those happy meals. Man, I just wish I could play with the toy but, daddy is saving them from his happy meals. Mommy said he gets them so, he can feel like a kid too. Boy oh Boy, sometimes parents are just weird ... and daddy just told me to be careful what I say. Okay, thats enough about that, don''t you think? Let''s move on.
Mommy and daddy said my biggest news is that I am finally sleeping through the night. After around 8 hours, I start waking up but, they keep putting that passy back in and I forget what happens after that. Also, they said something about teething and I''m a little irritable, not sure what that word means. When we were getting my photos taken, I saw a picture of a little girl on the wall. Something about the photo was so funny and I just kept laughing and laughing and laughing at it. Also, I did the same thing with another photo on a box at Target last night. Daddy told me that I have a wicked sense of humor like him and nobody will ever understand. On that note, I''m gonna think about crawling on out of here. Instead, I will cry and then one of them will come get me and I wil smile. Mommy keeps telling me that I am spoiled and I thought that meant that I went bad. I hope they don''t think I''m a bad egg or something. I love my mommy and daddy, they are the greatest. Then again, do I have a second option. hahaha, jokes mommy and daddy, hahahaah. alright, I miss everyone back in Louisiana and Hope to see the rest of you up in OHIO next year. Bye Bye Bye for now.
Their Chunky Monkey,
P.S. Mommy said I will get to have two birthdays this year. My real one and my expected one. She said that my expected one will be more fun and I''ll be able to have cake at that one. All gifts are welcome and appreciated. Okay, I''m really done now.
Ryland: Airplanes Are Fun But, I Couldn''t Bring My Stuff
Okay, I know everyone wants to know, how I did on the plane so, here goes. Well, I''m not really sure at all, as I slept most of the time and was eating the rest of the time. Oh yeah, there were some random crying spells but, hey, I''m a baby, what do you expect me to do. Mommy said I was a pretty good baby on the plane and she said lots of other people said the same thing
It seems like I''m spitting up alot lately and I know that vacations make me so tired and I get a little cranky around other people. I think I spit up on just about every single person that held me over the 3 days that we were gone from home. All I wanted was to be home in my swing or my bouncer or my jumper or my play gym or anything else that i had to play with. I had to settle for these little hand toys and they just aren''t that fun.
Well, we finally landed back in Orlando on Friday night and all seemed oh so well, when we walked into the house. Mommy was changing clothes and daddy was unloading the car, when they realized the carry on bag was missing. Some confusion between mommy and daddy, it was left right where our SUV was parked in the garage. They had alot of drama and after about an hour, mommy was back home with the bag and all was good. Okay, that''s a quick update on my airplane trip and I think one of the airplane guys broke something on my carseat. Oh well, daddy says he can fix it with no problem at all. Okay, I''m going to catch up on some more sleep and some cartoons. Oh yeah, just glad they found that bag, as mommys laptop was in there along with her jewelry. If it had been stolen, daddy said he would have been putting his credit card to use at bestbuy and some jewelry store. Okay, i''m sooo sweepy.
Ryland: I Want My Baby Back, Baby Back, Baby Back ... Carrots
Puh leeze, don''t get on to me for taking so long with my latest update. My life has been a little crazy with playing and eating and learning new things. I''m not sure if everyone else knows this but, we have tiny fingers on the end of our feet and I''ve been playing with them lately. Sometimes I wil just hold on to them and feel them with my hands. Okay, that was just something that I just noticed and thought was interesting. Okay, let''s move on with the updates.
Next week, I will be going on my very first plane ride, over to Louisiana. Mommy, Daddy, & I are going back over there, to deal with some stuff about our new house. They are telling me that the plane trip is fun stuff but, I''m not sure going way up in the air, is all that entertaining, if you know what I mean. Let''s just hope that everything goes well and we land safely. also, I''ll be getting to see my granny and the rest of my family again.
Over the last few weeks, mommy has been giving me some new foods. I''ve had carrots, squash, and sweet potatos. Hmm, they are all so good, I''m not sure if I can pick a favorite but, mommy thinks carrots are my favorite. They all are great, I just want more than, she will let me have at once. Sometimes, I feel like I could eat a whole carrot patch but, mommy says oh, but, no. Oh yeah, I am getting some oatmeal cereal in with my formula too. Yep, I''m still on that totally gross formula.
Over the past week, I''ve been trying to roll over from my back to my tummy. Mommy is determined to catch it on video camera. also, daddy bought her this knew digital camera that can zoom all the way up my nose to my brain or so it seems. HaHa! Something tells me this will be my hand-me-down camera in about 10 years. Then, the real photography will begin. I''ll take photos of mommy and addy, when they are least expecting it.
Mommy posted some videos of me talking to myself the other day and you should be able to see them on here. Those throw-away cameras that Raily and I had in the NICU finally got developed but, the photos didn''t come out all that well of either of us. Mommy isn''t going to post any of them so, sorry, there won''t be any unseen photos of Railey posted. Daddy has been upset lately about Trace & Railey alot lately so, I''m just hoping he stays strong, to keep me and mommy on track.
At the end of June, I went to my check up at the G.I. doctor and found out that I am FAT, Yes, I''m fat and needed to start doing sit-ups. Well, I have some bad news for that nurse, I''m not doing them and I''m just gonna keep on eating. Mommy told me that just means there will be more of me to love. Oh yeah, more lovin'' for little old me. HaHa! Also, I weighed in at around 15 lbs 10 ozs but, I''m probably around 16 pounds by now. I''m stil pretty short and measuring 25 inches in length. If anyone cracks any short jokes, I''ll do something, not sure what but, something. Oh yeah, I''ll do the only thing, I really know how to do, I''ll pee on you. I''m good at it too.
Alright, I guess my updates are boring now, as not much is going on. I''m healthy and my poops are still looking good, knock on wood. (Knock Knock) My soft spot on my head is starting to get harder so, that''s good for some reason. Also, I have an appointment on Monday with my early steps lady and she''s going to help determine if I''m behind or something. if she tells me that I''m slow or something, I know everyone here will back me up and speak the truth. Hahahaahahaha! Seriously, with my own song entitled "I''m Bringin'' Passy''s Back", how can anyone call me slow, when I have the lyrical flow. Hahahah! Okay, I will close and get some beauty rest, if you know what I mean. For those of you, who don''t get that, I mean swing and watch some tv and hopefully fall asleep for a while. Today, is the one year anniversary of mommy and daddy finding out that she was having two babies. Bye Bye Bye 4 now.
Lots Of Fat Love,
P.S. I noticed that mommy told everyone about the Orlando Science Center. osc.org is the website and we got to see lots of dead bodies and body parts, its very weird. Okay, I''m not really sure if I had that much fun there. Mommy and daddy enjoyed it quite a bit though, just a little freaky. Okay, I''m really done now.
Well, we went to the Orlando Science Center for the day and I had a blast. We got to see so many people and things. However Ryland became very fussy after about 4 hours so we decided to head home and call it a night. Im sure he will enjoy the fire works alot more next year anyway! Rylands doing very well! He is eating stage 1 foods right now and going strong. He LOVES his food thats for sure. He has a few evaluations coming up this month to see how well he is developing and when I get the report back I will update everyone! I just wanted to let everyone know we are doing well! Thank you to everyone who still checks up on our little man!
Yesterday, I was just bouncing in my jumparoooo and living the good life of a Brooks baby, when I had a thought. Back in the day, when I was in the NICU, I use to think that this was the life, that everyone should have this life. Boy, was I soooooo wrong back in the old days. Let me run everyone through a normal day, starting around 9:00 pm the night before.
Mommy, Daddy, & I all go to bed and we say our prayers and I''m normally asleep in the middle of the first line. In fact, I''m not sure that I''ve ever made it through an entire prayer. Someone really needs to make those things shorter or something. Mommy and Daddy watch some TV and they argue over, who is gonna watch what each night. Mommy wants lifetime and Daddy wants anything but, lifetime or a reality show. Daddy calls lifetime, the poop on man channel. Oh well, they are doing that and I''m dreaming of bottles and hoping to get some more of that grape flavored pedia stuff. Yep, you guessed it, I''m only sleeping for a few hours.
Next up is ... I''m up and ready for some chow. Most of the time, daddy gets up with me first and warms my baba and serves me more of that nasty formula. although, after eating it for a couple months, I''ve realized that I better shush and like it. Daddy feeds me, holds me, and watches some boring history channel stuff. When he puts it on that channel, mommy always rolls her eyeballs up in her head. She said, don''t tell him but, one day she isn''t going to give me what I want and boom, here goes the eye story. HaHa! Mommy, you know I''m just kidding, right? Okay, back to sleep.
Snore! Snore! At least, thats what I hear coming from their bed most of the time. Me? Nope, I never snore, I am as quiet as, well, a baby. In about 3 hours, I''m back and its mommy moping toward the kitchen for my bottle. After this bottle, I''m only sleeping for a little longer and at 6:30, its time to play play play. Basicly, I sit there and they entertain me somehow. I honestly don''t care how, just something is better than nothing. Now, repeat those steps with alot more awake time and thats my daily schedule. Not that anyone really cares but, I wanted to tell everyone. Yep, I watch cartoons, watch that weird looking dog, swing in my swing, and bounce in my bouncer. They really should let all the babies in the NICU have a swing. Seriously, it''s almost like flying, that''s what I''ve been told anyway. Oh yeah, I watch mommy on the internet keyboard thing, tell people about me and post on her space online. Oh yeah, I''m up to 15 lbs now and eating around 6 ounces during every feed. although, at night, I don''t eat near as much as I do during my hungry day feedings.
My stuffy nose is 99% cleared up and I received my six month shots last week. They hurt my leg and I slept horribly that night. Plus, I have a bump on both legs, but, mommy has been putting lotion on it for me, oh yes! In just a few more months, I''ll be leaving Florida and off to our new home in the sticks in Louisiana. I know, I Know, I Know, no more disney world, no more universal studios, no more sea world, no more wet ''n wild, no more anything, it will be quite boring, compared to my city life. Daddy swares, its for the best for us and mommy agrees with him. I just know that Disney better build a new park closer to me. Mommy says we can still visit aunt B in Orlando, if I want to come back that bad. Oh well, I"m in size 2 diapers now. I''m sure everyone needed to know that and I''m working on my next DVD with home video footage from my coming out of mommy day, up until my most recent vacation. alright, check out my rolling over video and my latest photos. I''m back off to bed now. I had to sneak in here, while daddy was in the shower and mommy was sleeping. I put a balloon as my head and she keeps patting it, thinking its me. HaHa, she might not buy that much longer. Oh no, she''s hollering my name now, what to do?????? Bye
OMG Everyone Ryland just rolled over from his belly to his back for the first time ever. It''s like 10:28 and I had to pee so ran to the bathroom real quick and just as I turned the corner he DID IT. I''m so EXCITED our little boy is growing up! Im about to cry im so excited. Okay gotta run I took a pic of him right after I really wish I had gotten it on video. I cant wait to tell Bruce! Hes sleeping still!
Update: Everytime I turn him on his belly he goes right back to his back! So I decided to try and get it on video and I DID. So I uploaded it so everyone can see. Enjoy!!!
After a long week of vacation and traveling across the universe, I''m back feeling sick again. My nose is stopped up, my throat is dry, and I can''t sleep good at all. We arrived back at home on Tuesday and I was back with a doctor on Wednesday. I should have known that I couldn''t make it more than 2 weeks without seeing some type of doctor. The DR gave me some medicine and a breathing machine that I use 4 times a day, that is suppose to help me out with breathing and stuff. Also, after I started getting sick, my daddy caught the same exact thing and has felt terrible all day. He is getting better and I think I''m starting to feel a little better too. Okay, let me tell you how the vacation went.
Day 1: This was the 2nd most boring day of the entire vacation. We spent 9 hours driving in our SUV and the carseat was hurting my tail, if you know what I mean. Plus, they only let me get out to eat and change my diaper. At the end of the day, we stopped at a hotel in Mississippi, for the night. It was great,i was out of the carseat and my mommy and daddy played with me in the hotel. Off to sleep.
Day 2: After 5 long hours of driving again, we arrived at our first stop. My grandpa, Great Grandma, and other family was waiting to see me and had fixed a big dinner for everyone. My great aunt had some good cooking, at least thats what mommy and daddy was talking about. As usual, all I ate was my formula in my bottle. We stayed there for a few hours and then went over to our hotel, where we would stay for the next 4 days. After checking in, we packed up again and headed out toward my great grandpa''s house, for a few hours. He was excited to see me and I was excited to see him too. Plus, my granny was on her way out to see me and arrived after a couple hours. We then loaded back up and went to the hotel for some good sleep.
Day 3: This was possibly the longest day of my entire life. We spent all day shopping for houses and in the hot sun. They let me stay in the car with my granny alot so, i didn''t get too hot. all I know is this place is much more stickier than Florida. I mean I was sweating like crazy and didn''t like it at all. After 8 hours of shopping around, they finally picked out a house and it was the very first one we stopped at. if they had just stopped then, we could have saved alot of time. also, my great grandpa and my great aunt Myra was shopping with us too. The house is quite nice and my bedroom is much bigger than the one at this house. Plus, my bathroom has one of those gigantic bathtubs in it so, when i get big enough, I''ll have a big tub to put my water toys in. Daddy keeps rubbing it in my face, that his bathroom has a bigger tub with air jets in it. Thats alright though, mommy wil let me play in their tub if I want too.
Day 4: We spent the entire day at my great grandpa''s house along with an additional 14 people. The day was spent passing me around and my daddy telling people to wash their hands over and over again. Well, somebody didn''t listen and thats when i started getting sick, that night. Oh well, I guess I can''t get away from every germ out there. Mommy and daddy went to the casino that night and won $167 so, they didn''t lose anything at all, like they were expecting. My granny kept me while they went there and we had one more stop after they picked me back up. I think i wore my granny out in those few hours of her taking care of me. We then headed over to daddys cousin house, Mr. Brad and spent a little while over there. Back to the hotel for some sleep.
Day 5: We spent it back with my grandpa''s side of the family and my great grandma etc. We did that for a few hours and then we were off to the hotel again. In the morning we would be back on the road, heading back to our house.
Day 6: I started getting really sick and was tired of the carseat after just a few hours. We finally stopped at a hotel for the night and I wasn''t doing all that good. Mommy and daddy ordered some BBQ to the hotel and were complaining that it wasn''t good at all.
Day 7: After getting back on the road, for 4 hours, we arrived back at home. All was well and I felt pretty bad and was just happy to be home.
Okay, that''s all for now and will update again, when i start feeling better.Oh yeah, I now weigh 14 lbs 2 ozs, as of yesterday. more updates coming soon.
Okay! Seriously, I just have been so busy lately with photo shoots and eating that, I''m just always tired. Mommy has been begging me, to write a new update but, she just doesn''t know what its like being a baby. She said she was a baby once but, I''m just not so sure about that. In just a little while, we will be on the road, on our way to the muddy waters of Louisiana. Daddy told me, its nothing like Florida and people even talk different. At first I was like, please don''t tell me spanish, i don''t know spanish. Please, at least let me learn english first but, then he explained it. Yep, its much worse than spanish, I just don''t know what to do about this stuff. He told me that everyone speaks red-neck-onics. He said unfortunately, there isn''t a class you can take, to learn how to speak or understand it. Mommy jumped in and said that daddy speaks red-neck-onics and that I have nothing to worry about. Oh yeah, my other grandma was down in Orlando visiting me this weekend and we had lots of fun. although, when I started to reflux, she started looking just a little worried. Daddy told me to get her with some formula but, mommy said that wouldn''t be very nice. Daddy still sticks by his story and he''s not changing it at all. Oh well, things are all okay with us down here.
Not too long ago, my daddy wrote another poem and mommy begged him to put it on the website. he finally agreed and I''ll put it below my message. here goes and one more thing, mommy will never get me smiling, I make sure to stop when she grabs that sony electronic camera thing. Hopefully will update from the trip with lots of unsmiling photos. Gotta go, she has the camera again. Lots of love and can''t wait to see all my family people in Louisiana. Grandma said, you have to bring gifts to get in the door. HaHa! Oh yeah, that works out good for me. Bye Bye Bye
P.S. As promised, here is daddys thoughts
Title: "Broken Dreams"
My heart was open
And ready for the world,
Until the special moment
When I met this beautiful girl.
She is a fantasy novel
And is in all of my dreams,
She''ll always be in my life
Rooting and playing for my team.
When we first held hands
And silently spoke our love,
I knew the moment had arrived
For my gift from up above.
We spent many countless hours
Hoping and praying for forever,
It would make our dreams come true
To live this life together.
Late in the sleepless nights
I would be thinking about her,
And with a small wish
Hope to have sweet dreams of her.
Little did we know at the time
There were other plans in store,
That would crash our dreams
And break our hearts to the core.
She didn''t speak much
About her heartfelt beliefs,
Maybe she already knew
That it was ending in Grief.
None of My wishes came true
Not even the smallest one,
After she left for good
What happened, couldn''t be undone.
Why this pretty dream was crushed
That, I''ll never understand,
Why another one of our beautiful babies
Was gently placed in Gods hands.
My precious Railey marie
Mommy & daddy miss you so much,
It would be a blessing, to see your face
And a miracle, to feel your touch.
I just wish deep in my heart
That God would send me faraway,
To give you back to mommy
So you could play with Ryland today.
When your birthday comes this year
It will be joy and heartbreak,
When there are only two hands
Covered in icing and cake.
Hopefully you will watch
Your twin brother smile,
When he blows out the candle
And it takes him a while.
Just know that we''ll pray
And wish you were there,
With lots of cake and icing
Smeared in your beautiful hair.
My angel Railey Marie
Please know we dearly tried,
Everything we knew and could do
To help and save your life.
We go back sometimes
And think about our what if''s,
Knowing that nothing will change
And nothing will be different.
Deep in our hearts
That''s Where you will always stay,
As we wil love you forever
And think of you every day.
We will hold you again soon
In a place full of love,
Where angels live
Far away up above.
Well, we are going on vacation very soon. So we are getting Ryland ready making sure every thing is good to go. He has another eye appointment on Tuesday so we are praying the ROP is still gone. Ryland is smiling all the time now. He is also talking (baby talk) to us alot as well. Except when I get my camera or video camera of course. I''m trying my hardest to get a GOOD pic of him smiling and some video of him telling us what he thinks. His poops have cleared up and have been really good, for almost 2 weeks now. All in all our little boy is doing very WELL. I will tell him he needs to do an update soon. Hope everyone enjoyed their dvd. Take Care!
Ohh..almost forgot. Take a look at Rylands pics I have a couple shots of him smiling just not real good shots but, better then nothing. ;)
Normal is having tears waiting behind every smile when you realize someone important is missing from all the important events in your family''s life.
Normal for me is trying to decide what to take to the cemetery for Birthdays Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years, Valentine''s Day, July 4th and Easter.
Normal is feeling like you know how to act and are more comfortable with a funeral than a wedding or birthday party...yet feeling a stab of pain in your heart when you smell the flowers and see the casket.
Normal is feeling like you can''t sit another minute without getting up and screaming, because you just don''t like to sit through anything.
Normal is not sleeping very well because a thousand what if''s & why didn''t I''s go through your head constantly.
Normal is reliving that day continuously through your eyes and mind, holding your head to make it go away.
Normal is having the TV on the minute I walk into the house to have noise, because the silence is deafening.
Normal is staring at every baby who looks like he is my baby''s age. And then thinking of the age she would be now and not being able to imagine it. Then wondering why it is even important to imagine it, because it will never happen.
Normal is every happy event in my life always being backed up with sadness lurking close behind, because of the hole in my heart.
Normal is telling the story of your child''s death as if it were an everyday, commonplace activity, and then seeing the horror in someone''s eyes at how awful it sounds. And yet realizing it has become a part of my "normal".
Normal is each year coming up with the difficult task of how to honor your child''s memory and her birthday and survive these days. And trying to find the balloon or flag that fit''s the occasion. Happy Birthday? Not really.
Normal is my heart warming and yet sinking at the sight of something special my baby loved. Thinking how she would love it, but how she is not here to enjoy it.
Normal is having some people afraid to mention my baby.
Normal is making sure that others remember her.
Normal is after the funeral is over everyone else goes on with their lives, but we continue to grieve our loss forever.
Normal is weeks, months, and years after the initial shock, the grieving gets worse sometimes, not better.
Normal is not listening to people compare anything in their life to this loss, unless they too have lost a child. NOTHING. Even if your child is in the remotest part of the earth away from you - it doesn''t compare. Losing a parent is horrible, but having to bury your own child is unnatural.
Normal is taking pills, and trying not to cry all day, because I know my mental health depends on it.
Normal is realizing I do cry everyday.
Normal is disliking jokes about death or funerals, bodies being referred to as cadavers, when you know they were once someone''s loved one.
Normal is being impatient with everything and everyone, but someone stricken with grief over the loss of your child.
Normal is sitting at the computer crying, sharing how you feel with chat buddies who have also lost a child.
Normal is feeling a common bond with friends on the computer in England, Australia, Canada, the Netherlands and all over the USA, but yet never having met any of them face to face.
Normal is a new friendship with another grieving mother, talking and crying together over our children and our new lives.
Normal is not listening to people make excuses for God. "God may have done this because..." I love God, I know that my baby is in heaven, but hearing people trying to think up excuses as to why healthy babies were taken from this earth is not appreciated and makes absolutely no sense to this grieving mother.
Normal is being too tired to care if you paid the bills, cleaned the house, did laundry or if there is any food.
Normal is wondering this time whether you are going to say you have three children or two, because you will never see this person again and it is not worth explaining that my baby is in heaven. And yet when you say you have two children to avoid that problem, you feel horrible as if you have betrayed your baby.
Normal is avoiding McDonald''s and Burger King playgrounds because of small, happy children that break your heart when you see them.
Normal is asking God why he took your child''s life instead of yours and asking if there even is a God.
Normal is knowing I will never get over this loss, in a day or a million years.
And last of all, Normal is hiding all the things that have become "normal" for you to feel, so that everyone around you will think that you are "normal".
Today, Ry had his operation and everything looks good. There are no bad things to report and we will just wait on the results of the biopsy, to see on the results of the milk protein allergy. We''ll report more, when we get home, still at the hospital now and will be heading home in a couple hours. They wanted to keep him, just in case he had any brady''s etc. saturation is good and he had one brady but, he self stimulated himself and brought it back up. He really enjoyed being on pedia lite, for the last 18 hours or so, grape flavored is the way to go. More coming soon
Boy, just when I thought this was the summer of my life, things are put on hold. Last week, my grandmaw Lila became sick and we pushed everything back a couple weeks. Mommy said I couldn''t be around anyone, that has been sick. She said, it would make me sick and then i would feel very bad. Well, I accepted that and now something bigger has come up. As most of you know, I''m still having problems with my poops, need i say more? On Wednesday, I''ll be having something called a colonoscopy done. Mommy tells me, it won''t be fun but, she will get me a formula happy meal after the whole thing is over with. From what I hear, happy meals are coming with a very cool toy, these days. Let''s just hope and pray that everything turns out okay. To all my family, back in Louisiana, we''ll be coming up in a few weeks, as long as everything stays good. Okay, I need to go, daddy has something he''s itching to speak his mind on. Sending my hugs and wet kisses out to everyone. Oh yeah, check out the photos of mommy''s, mommys day present, that me and daddy bought for her.
Ryland: RMB A
As stated, we are worried about Ryland''s small operation. We just hope that things come back with good news and simple solutions. As most of you know, we lost our first baby boy on 03/19/06. When mothers day rolled around last year, people were in fear and some wouldn''t even consider our first baby, our true first baby. Yes, he passed away in utero and never took a breath of air but, that doesn''t mean anything. We held him in our arms, just like we hold Ryland today. This year, Crystal is getting mothers day wishes and such that are just a tad bit hurtful. Some cards, say something like this: "You are truly a mother this year" or "You can finally celebrate mothers day" or something in that context. These things come off quite hurtful and probably aren''t meant that way. Put yourself in our shoes and then look back on the situation. Your saying that Trace wasn''t our baby and Crystal wasn''t his mother. Crystal is the mother, to all of our beautiful children and nobody can take that away from her. Remember, this is Bruce, voicing my oppinion and Crystal would never speak her mind on something small like this, as most wouldn''t understand. Now, to all the mothers out hthere of angel babies and whom aren''t recognized each year, because your baby isn''t here on earth. let me wish you a very happy mothers day, straight from the heart. You''ll always be a mother and damn anyone, who tries to tell you differently. also, a quick note to the mother of Sparky, we hope your doing great and just received the news of your BFP. Crystal and I are praying for you and hope that you won''t have anymore losses. Sparky is watching over you and wants you to be happy. This week, most of you will be receiving your gifts in the mail. Let us know what you think of them during the weekend. We don''t want to spoil the surprise, for the others. Thanks and we''ll be sure to update on Ryland on Wednesday evening.
Bruce: Trace, Ryland, & Railey''s Daddy
P.S. We found this card online and it really should exist. This is dedicated, to the mommys of angel babies.
Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven,
and though it must appear
A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit,
your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother,
as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought,
every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card,
from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too,
no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands,
but oh the tears she''s cried.
I thought that if I wrote you,
that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now,
I still love my mother so.
She talks with me and dreams with me;
we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now,
would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart,
her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me,
sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden,
there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents,
trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark,
though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way,
to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored,
and remembered too
Just as the children
of earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark,
I know you''ll do your best
I have done all I can do;
to you I''ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her,
how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself,
when she joins me in eternity.
alright! Not sure about everyone else but, it seems like I''m getting fat. Yes, daddy said a rep from Weight Watchers called us, asking if we needed to enroll me in their program. Daddy said, probably so and then I made it look like I hung the phone up on accident. I''m all muscle, I can do some serious kicking my feet, if you know what I mean. also, I now weigh 12 lbs 4 ozs, as of yesterday at the G.I. doctor. My poops are looking good, thanks to my prayers, to the poop Gods. Also, i''m eating this neokate formula and its beyond gross. Although, I''m not even sure what gross means, just mommy tasted the formula and almost spit it back up. She puts rice cereal and a couple drops of vanilla stuff in it. It taste a little better and I''m able to keep it in my tummy, for my growing pleasure.
In a couple weeks,mommy and daddy are taking me, to a place far far away. Mommy said, its where our new home is going to be, later in the year. First off, I don''t even know where my old home is located. also, what is a home? Also, I can''t wait to see my grandma Lila again, she is the best and tells me, she is the prettiest lady in the world. She doesn''t know that, I think my mommy is the prettiest and my most favorite person in the world. My mommy is #1 and i will always love her. Oh yeah, back to my updates. Daddy said this place is far away and it will take us two days, to get back to the swamps. It should be great fun but, the truck ride will be forever long. Well, those of you who sent your mailing addresses, will be getting very cool gifts next week. Those of you who didn''t, this is your last chance to get something, every cool and not many people even get. Gotta go, its time to chow. Lots of love, from the brooks zoo.
Ryland M A S O N
P.S. Yesterday, I was two months corrected age so, Happy real two months to me! Yeehaw!
Mommy sat down with me the other day and we had a little chat. She said, if I didn''t start writing my own
updates again, she said I would have to cut the grass. First off, what is grass? Mommy is the best and
funny too. Mommy is having a birthday tomorrow and will be turning 50! HaHa! Daddy just said, I wouldn''t
do that if I were you so, okay, she will be 27. I keep telling him, mommy loves everything about me, even
when the jokes are about her. happy Birthday Mommy and I love you always and forever. Okay, let''s move
on to my updates.
as mommy told of my upcoming doctor appointment, here is what happened. First off, I sure thought I was
bigger than I was but, I now weigh 11 lbs and 13 ounces. They seem to be perfectly happy with me gaining
over a pound in less than a month so, I''m happy too. My C Diff test came back negative but, I am still
having blood and mucus. I really don''t think anyone has a clue, what is going on inside of my little but, cute
bottom. The doctor said it was something but, it would just had to go away on its own, as its called
something weird. Oh yeah, I did smile for mommy a couple times and I also had a bath last night so, I feel
zestfully clean. Dad said that would be funny again! You would think, he plans every line as a joke. I''m just
glad he told me that the mommy turning 50 joke was a bad thing so, I could tell the truth on that one.
Mommy would have been mad and made me watch another episode of ''days Of Our Lives", that show is so
boring. Okay, the reason for my delayed updates is that me and daddy have been working on something, to
send with our thank you cards next week. It''s going to be awesome and most of you should be looking for
something in the mail next week. If you have signed the guestbook at least twice in the last three months,
send your address to my mommy at firstname.lastname@example.org and you''ll probably be getting a present in the
mail. For those of you, who sent me presents and stuff, you''ll be getting a little extra something in the mail
too. Mommy and daddy have been taking me out to a few stores lately but, I gotta say that i love "Babies ''R
Us", that is my kind of store. If you haven''t been, they have baby boys, baby clothes, baby toys, and baby
toys and also, they have lots of baby toys. It''s the greatest place around, excluding my bed when I''m tired.
Okay, daddy said he had a question for everyone and its kind of weird. I love everyone and especially my
mommy and daddy. happy Birthday Mommy, you''ve reached the big 50! HaHa, gotta go.
Ryland: RMB A
Hello! Crystal and I were talking the other day and its quite weird but, ironic. as most of you know, I''m from
Louisiana and I love crawfish. Over the past 15 months, we have ordered crawfish and had them sent here
and something always bad happens. march 18, 2006 we had a party and everyone ate crawfish. That night,
is when Crystal went into labor with Trace and he was born 03/19/06. November 21, we had received an
order of some frozen food from Louisiana of some crawfish pies and the next day, Crystal went into labor with
the twins. April 11, 2007 we ordered crawfish, just for us and Ryland got sick that night, before we even got
home with them. Then we took him to the Emergency Room that night. It''s quite odd but, just wanted to
put that out there. Happy upcoming mothers day to everyone and hope everyone has a good day. happy
birthday, to my lovely wife and hope you enjoy turning 60!
Alright, everyone I have notified Ryland that he needs to do some posting. That he is being missed. I just wanted to let everyone know we have a G.I. doctor appointment tomorrow morning so he will post the update. If I have to hold him up to the keyboard I promise it will be done. ;)
Well, I just can''t get over how big my little boy is getting. I truley never thought I could have such LOVE for something like this. I just look at him and melt. I swear this little boy just doesnt know how he has us wrapped right now! Im still waiting on him to start smiling at me. I work with him everyday just to get him to try. So far it hasnt worked. (giggle) I couldnt see my life without him.
On the medical side of things hes stools are the same only no blood (woohoo) for that! He has been taking some meds and im hoping they work this time for good. Other then that Ryland is doing pretty well. He tends to be getting alot more hungry these days. He has been demanding a bottle every 2 hours. I have been giving him 4oz but, am starting to think hes getting ready for cereal. I guess we will just have to see how things go. I hope everyone is doing well these days.
Oh there are some new pictures of him aswell. Check them out!
Okay Okay Okay! Yes, I know its been a long time, since my last update but, here goes all of the stuff that''s been happening. First off, I just got out of the hospital on Friday night. Well, it started Wednesday morning, I started feeling really really bad. By the end of the day, I don''t even remember what all happened and I remember waking up in the hospital room with the nurse trying to stick me with that pointy thing. Mommy said my fever was 102.4 and I wasn''t even hungry. as you all know, me not being hungry is like a fish not swimming. They gave me some tylenol and I started to feel much better, once my head cooled down a bit. Then, we went home and it gets worse. Daddy said that the nurse needed us, to come back to the hospital, because my blood culture came back bad. All I know is that they ended up sticking me with that pointy thing again. It hurt so bad and I just wanted my mommy to make the hurt go away. i cried and cried and cried and cried some more. Then, they gave us our own room and we stayed for 30 hours. Then the next blood thingy came back normal and they guess the first one was just a bad test. Also, my poop is like water and full of mucus and some blood. They started me on that medicine again but, then I checked out of the hospital and the pharmacy that mommy gets it from was already closed. That means, I couldn''t get any more until today. Nobody knows what is wrong with me.
Well, I''m off to sit in my swing and watch the wind blow around the room. Okay, really I''m just watching the fan up above everything. Oh yeah, mommy thinks she made me make a sound yesterday but, I really just had gas. HaHa! Hopefully, mommy will post some new pictures of me soon, I''m getting to be a big boy now. Gotta go, I''m feeling the urge to, you know. alright, that''s all for now and hopefully things will get better for us. Happy Easter everyone, hope you all were able to eat some easter eggs, i wasn''t able to eat any at all. poor me! Oh yeah, the urge is to eat, not anything weird. LOL
Ryland or as daddy says "his mini me"? Not sure what that means though
Ryland: RSV Shots Are Over Now, Summer Is Just around the corner
At least, thats what my parents told me. No more shots for a while now and in less than one week, they took me to get another one. It hurt so bad and I just wish I could have spoke after that. Then out of nowhere, my daddy spoke my mind and he said "If he was naked, he would pee on you". yep, thats what he said and I sure would have done it too. Mommy wishes daddy wouldn''t say what he thinks alot of the time though, haha. Look daddy, I''m just repeating what mommy said, take that up with her!! Alright, I have some really big news for everyone, its gonna happen probably on Thursday at some point. You''ll have to read the entire update to find out though. HaHa!
This morning, my G.I. nurse called to see how I was doing. Actually, she called to let us know that my poop was still testing posative but, they weren''t gonna make me take more medicine, unless it started getting worse. Yeehaw, no more medicine and when we went to my doctor appointment this afternoon, that doctor gave me a new medicine, thanks to daddy. He had to say something and they took me off zantac and put me on prevacid. Daddy said it will help me keep my food down easier. Of course, he doesn''t have to take this nasty medicine. Lucky for me, the place where mommy gets the medicine didn''t have any available until tomorrow. Also, my big news is that i should weigh 10 pounds on Thursday, I weigh 9 lbs 13.7 ozs now. Yep, all I gotta say is, "baby got back"? Daddy said that would be funny, that must be another old saying. Haha, daddy didn''t like that joke much. He said something about, he''ll show me a rumpshaker? alright, lets move on away from those weird things.
Well, thats all of my update and nothing to move on too. I want to say thank you to Denise in Orlando for the gift card and mommy bought me a fisher Price something, that moves me side to side and has some cool toys on it. I send you big hugs and kisses, Ms Denise J. Alright, need to get ready for my photo shoot this week. Oh yeah, Skylin and Dylan, you guys will be getting a present from me on Thursday or Friday. Hope you guys love it and get your mommy to take photos and send them to my mommy. Oh yeah, thanks to Tara for donating to the Trace & Railey thing, that was so sweet.
On Sunday, I officially turned 4 months old but, as mom keeps telling me, only 18 days corrected. See, that makes me sound so small, I keep telling her I''m grown now. Oh well, parents just don''t understand. My daddy just started singing some song called "parents just don''t understand", there goes that old age again. All I know is that in 2007, I''m bringin'' passy''s back, they are so cool and fun. If you guys haven''t tried one yet, their great. Skylin (my valentine" and I suck on them all the time these days. Okay, let me tell everyone about my shots yesterday.
Mommy took me to the doctor and daddy stayed home. Mommy won''t let daddy go to the doctor, he''s afraid he might speak his mind or something. Oh well, mommy and I were off to the doctors office. Little did I know, they were gonna stick me three times in my leg. It hurt so bad and i just cried and cried and cried. Mommy was there, to make it feel better. She kissed it and it started to feel better right away. Also, the doctor says I''m looking good and everything else down there is looking good. I now weigh 9 lbs 6 ozs. Daddy said I''m getting heavier than a sack of potatos. Hmm, what is a potato? Oh well, I guess I will learn in time. Also, my medicine is over and they are gonna test my poopy for that C Diff thing again. Chances are,i''ll have to go back on that bubble gum flavored medicine. Although, it doesn''t taste all that bad. My eyes are starting to work a little better and I''m watching that thing that turns above my bed, its quite cool. I wish it would do other things though, turning is just borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrring. Alright, I gotta go for now. Daddy and I are gonna eat king crab today, it will be great. Honestly, he is gonna eat it in front of me and probably scare me with a crab claw. Thats alright, his old day is coming. Okay, I''m probably gonna get it now, thats two old jokes in one update. Gotta go. Oh yeah, I love you daddy. HaHa!
Ryland: The Boy Bringin'' Passys Back
Today, we made donations to the march of dimes in memory of Trace & Railey. We ask in their memory, if you could donate anything to the MOD. Here are the links and anything would be welcomed. MOD helps spread the word about healthy pregnancies and hopefully, will educate those, who aren''t knowledgeable on pregnancy complications. If we can help spare the grief for just one parent, its worth every single penny. Crystal and I already made donations and here are the links for their pages. Either of them will be great. Thank you and Ryland is doing great today. Also, we switched him over to the Dr Brown bottles and they seem to have helped with his gas cramps. Thank you and updates coming soon.
Ryland: Does anyone know, when I will be getting Different Food?
Seriously, this formula stuff is already getting old. I warned them, if I didn''t start getting seafood, chicken, McDonald''s, or something, I was gonna get mad. They didn''t listen and I''ve been just showing them a little formula on their clothes lately. also, decided to even pee on my mom a few times. If that isn''t a lesson taught, I don''t know what you would call it. Anyway, my updates are on the way.
On Tuesday, they took me to another doctors appointment and wouldn''t you know, they made me mad. I''m not sure what this man is looking for in my eyes but, I''m sick and tired of it. If he isn''t careful, i''ll pee on him next time. He needs to just ask mommy, I''ll do it without notice. My eyes are still the same and he''s gonna see me again inn 3 weeks.
Skylin, thank you for saying the prayer. The other night, I had a dream and the poopy prince told me that he was gonna make things better. Wouldn''t you know it, the next day I only pooped twice and things are getting better. Let''s just hope they keep getting better, I have a long ways to go. Thanks for the prayers and I don''t want those sunglasses, they look the best on you, the cutest girl in the world. *blushing* Alright, thats enough for now, let''s move on.
Mommy is going crazy with this picture taking camera deal. She said something about getting a bigger memory stick, no clue what that means. All I know is, I do take a good photo, hahahahah yeah! Okay, I''m not really photogenic but, mommy is gonna make me that way, if its the last thing she does. I mean to tell you, i hear click click more than I hear my own name. Daddy said a rep from Kodak called us the other day, asking us to buy stock or something. Daddy said just be lucky that we don''t have to get them developed anymore, instant photo. My daddy must be really old. alright, I think that joke just got me in trouble so, i better get sleepy and hungry right away. Gotta go, zoom zoom.
Lots Of Love,
Ryland: RMB Baby A
Happy Birhtday Trace, You are The man, Mommy Ryland, & I Love and miss you so much. This is a poem, dedicated to you little man. Take care of your little sister for us.
We thought of you today,
But that is nothing new
We thought of you yesterday
And will tomorrow, too
We think of you in silence
And make no outward show
For what it meant to lose you
Only those who love you know
Remembering you is easy
We do it everyday
It''s the heartache of losing you
That will never go away.
Until we see you again
Our love will never fade
Until that moment comes
In heaven you shall stay
My update is finally here, I''ve been shall we say out of the poop lately. Mommy has been calling doctors like crazy, this week. In fact, daddy told me that she has spoken more with doctors than him. That''s what he gets, for beating me in those arm wrestling matches. Also, daddy has been staying up with me every night so, mommy can get some sleep and mommy is up with me during the day. That''s right, mommy has been updating everyone so, nobody misses their "Ryland Fix"! Let me say that its great having so many people care about me and I''m only 3.5 months old or corrected age 10 days. Alright, lets get down to the latest.
Finally, after being just over 7 pounds for so long, I broke that weight marker. As of 2:00 pm on Friday, I weigh 8 lbs 9 ozs. Yep, daddy said something about putting me on weight watchers or something. Hmm, something tells me that he is being funny and needs a time out. HaHa, love those jokes, huh daddy. also, my doctor checked out my, um, boy stuff and said everything looks A-Okay. My parents also found out what was causing all of the poop problems and its called "Clostridium Difficile" or "C Diff" for short. No, I didn''t know that word, daddy helped me spell it out on here. Mommy said my regular baby doctor told her, all babies get it and she wouldn''t even treat it at all. Daddy wasn''t happy with her and said some things about her, I just cannot repeat ever. Also, they said we were going to change doctors as soon as possible. anyway, my GI doctor is giving me some antibiotics for the problems. I just hope this takes care of this problem. Now, on to my new problem.
It seems like when we get one thing fixed, something else starts happening. Mommy noticed my eyes were doing this weird thing, where they would go back and forth really fast.I have an eye doctor appointment on Tuesday so, we''ll see what happens then. Well, just hoping that this medicine helps and my eyes quit doing those funny things. Then, maybe mommy and daddy won''t have to worry as much, at least until I turn t2. That''s all for now and hope to check in again soon.
Mommys Little Man,
P.S. My big brother in heaven turns 1 year old on Monday. Happy B day Trace. We all love and miss you alot.
Well, we got the test results from the GI doc. and he has c.Diff. I really am not sure how he got it but, I do know he has had it for at least a month now. I''m a little upset knowing that if me and Bruce wouldnt have asked for him to be tested for this it would still be un known that he has this. Who knows how long it would of taking the doc to say hmmm...lets see the switching formula thing is not working maybe he has this. It just seem like you have to almost diagnose yourself these days. However, I am thrilled to know whats going on with our little boy now. They gave him some meds he has to take for 10 days then he will be retested to see if we get a neg. result. However it can take severl treatments to get rid of it. So far he has been very cranky because of the meds. I think it upsets his belly some. I''m just glad we could be on the road to recovery and him feeling alot better. Also, we are going to the peds office for a check up so I will have a weight on him today! I can''t wait to see how much my bog boy weighs now!
Take Care everyone! Ohhh..I have a short video to put up on the site but, not sure when I will be able to do it so I will try and get it done in the next couple days. ;)
Well, it looks as if daddy isnt doing updates anymore..lol. No, he is just very busy well both of us really. Ryland''s BM''s havent gotten any better and now I am starting to worry a bit. It just seems like no one can tell us whats going on with him. Today a lady came out to look at Ryland and she had mentioned that he loosing to much blood. Now, keep in mine shes no doctor but, now im WORRIED! I called his GI doctor AGAIN and asked them about this but, they wont call me back until tomorrow. So far I have called the GI doctor everyday this week. I just want some answers I need to know what going on with our son. Should I be concerned or not you know. It just seems like if it were a milk protien thing it would have at least started to get a little better. Grr...im just stressing about all this. He has been so CRANKY since starting him on the NEOCATE and he chokes at every feed now. I think its cause its so thin but, the doc is trying to tell me its the same thickness as regular formula. He has an appt. at the hospital on the 28th for them to put a camera up his bum to see whats going on so maybe then we will get some kind of answer! Thanks for listening to me rant on! Ohhh by the way I LOVE HAVING HIM HOME!!! I feel like a FULLTIME mommy now instead of a part time one!
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Well, Rylands GI doc. wants us to switch his formula to NEOCATE now! He also, wants him to have a minor surgery where they look in his bum to see whats going on with him. The blood in the poop is still the same so we are just hoping that the NEOCATE will make it all go away! Please pray that it will and we wont have to do the surgery!
Ok everybody I need major prayers going out to a 23 week baby gestation. He was born due to IC which is the same condition I had. Little Sparky has NEC as well but, the surgery went good. Please pray hard for this little guy! It just brings back so many horrible memories of Railey. I just hate thinking that another family is going through the same thing that we had to. Please just pray for him!!!
Well, it looks like daddy is taking forever to write an update so here''s a brief one! Ryland is still having some blood and mucus in his BM''s so his GI doc. said give the new formula 1 more week to see if it works ifnot the we are on to NEOCATE (YUK). So after that if the blood and mucus still doesnt go away we have to do the camera in the bum thing. I am just praying that the neocate does the trick.
Ryland has been really growing or at least it seems he has been to us. He is starting to like his bouncy chair and swing. He likes to look at me alot. I am also, trying to see how long he can hold onto things. His fav. is my finger I swear that boy is heman..lol. He will just wrap his hand around my finger and squeeze so tight. I think he''s becoming more aware everyday! Okay, im beat this boy is steady on a 3 hour thing so getting ready to feed him then its off to bed for about 2 hours. Take Care
Wooooo, its been a while since I updated but, I''m back with my latest news. It seems that my daddy was sneaking around and updated without me knowing about it. I''ll teach him ... that its okay if he does that. Also, mommy took a crazy picture of me with my blown up cheeks. Man, I''m gonna have to hide that camera or something, she is snapping photos every time, I ... do anything. She''s like,look Ryland is sleeping, awe,lets take a photo, look Ryland is pooping,lets take a photo, and I''m just getting tired of the pictures. Just kidding, I don''t mind seeing myself on the internet, for everyone to see. Plus, I know many people want, to see how I am growing. Oh yeah, lets update a little on my operation.
My operation, it went well and everything is looking well. That''s all I have to say about that. Let''s move on.
On Wednesday, I weighed 7 pounbs 6 ounces and I''m not growing that much anymore. I just hope this new formula can get my muscles building again. My daddy keeps beating me in the arm wrestling matches. I told him, just wait, one of these days and you are going down Mr. Mr. He just laughs at me but, I have a surprise coming for him. Also, I finally have been getting some good sleep over the last couple days. I''ts impossible with this intestinal infection that is going on, inside my tummy. The reflux isn''t bothering me as much anymore, I''m gradually getting further and further away from that. I want to send a big thanks out to, the people that have sent me gifts lately. Mommy and daddy plan to send out thank you cards, as soon as they get time for them. I''ve seen more doctors, than a medical college has graduated. I think there are 3 next week alone. Oh yeah, daddy bought me a new sleeper that says "If I Don''t Sleep, Nobody Sleeps". Oh yeah, we all know thats true. Well, daddy is fighting me for the computer, said something about he has to do some work. Also, he said if I want cool toys later, I better let him work. Alright, thats my queue so, I will go for now. I get to see my Grandma Loretta this weekend and I can''t wait. It''s going to be great and she hasn''t seen me since I weighed 3 pounds. Well, gonna say my prayer for my brother and sister in heaven and go night night. Bye Bye Bye
Ryland has been taking us on journey after journey during the recent days. As Ryland mentioned, he was switched over to soy formula last week but, started having droplets of blood in his stool. Now, we had him looked at, that morning and the doctor told us that it wasn''t anything to be worried about, at this point. Let me stop and say that, we''ll be changing pediatricians. She doesn''t listen to us, we know him better than anyone on the planet. Unfortunately, Ryland still weighs the exact same amount right now. He just wasn''t being fed enough, his pediatrician told us to stick with the 60 cc''s of formula but, his GI doctor told us that he needs to be eating more and we won''t overfeed him. If we do, he will give it right back to us and spread it on our shirts. He is still having mucus in his poop along with the random blood droplets. This is caused by an inflimation of the intestines and he has a food allergy. Which is what we tried to tell our pediatrician more than 2 weeks ago. Basicly, he has problems breaking down the protein in milk based formulas. Now, he is back to similac alimentum and will be on that for the next few weeks. If it doesn''t clear up at that point, he will have to switch to the very gross neocate. Let''s just hope that it wil help him out and fix his problems.
Now, lets move on to the drama from Friday night. Friday morning, Ryland had a little bit of green snot come out of his tiny nose. Well, we can''t run to the hospital with that as the problem so, we let it go for now. Friday night, his congestion was so bad that, he was having problems even breathing. We went to the ER and after 6 hours there, they sent us home with a pat on the back. They stuck a tube down his nose, to asperate the congestion for a RSV test. When the doctor saw it was green, they just canceled the test, as RSV isn''t green. Ryland basicly had a simple cold and hasn''t even left the house, excluding doctor appointments. We can already tell, that its gonna be a crazy year for all 3 of us. although, after they asperated the congestion, he could breathe pretty good and his saturation was excelent as well. Well, that was just about pointless, other than the x-ray of his lungs. They just wanted to make sure, his lungs were clear and he wasn''t running a temp. yes, his lungs were nice and clear, to quote the nurse that night.
Also, sorry for the lack of pictures and videos lately. all we do is sleep and make bottles and change diapers. Trust me, we are lovin'' every single minute with our little man. Personally, he has us wrapped around his pinky and is spoiled 100% rottin. Thats okay though, we aim to please. If he only knew of the horror, that wil be happening to him tomorrow. he is getting the all famous circumcision tomorrow morning. Also, he will be getting his RSV shot on Monday. Well, That is the latest on our little man. His due date is coming up next Wednesday so, he will officially be corrected age zero. Thank you to everyone, who has prayed for us and for his health. We feel so blessed, to stil have him with us today. He truly is a miracle.
When I typed my last update (daddy Translated my baby Talk), things have been getting a little better. My Grandma Lila flew down to Orlando, to visit me for the week. She brought some samples of a different formula that, mommy and daddy hadn''t tried yet but, had planned to in a couple days. They decided to give me Similac Soy and all I have to say is WOW! When I started eating it, instead of the other stuff that hurt my tummy, it didn''t hurt my tummy anymore. Okay, it wasn''t a perfect fix but, it wasn''t even close, to the bad pain from before the switch. They hope this helps me but, I hope it does more than anybody. also, my grandma has been hogging all the me time from my parents, daddy was jealous. Although, grandma is his mommy and she tells him what to do, at least thats what she told me, its a secret though. Lets update on my doctor appointments, lets see, how about now.
Tuesday, I had two different doctor appointments. First, we went to a place, where my doctor was very mean. They were shining this bright light in my eyes, gave me lots of eye drops, and made me cry hard and loud. Mommy told me that my eyes are still the same, stage 1 zone 2 ROP. She said thats good but, she doesn''t have to deal with all that pain. Not to mention, my vision was all blurry and fuzzy. Later in the day, we went to my regular doctor appointment. It was a little pointless, she really didn''t do anything at all but, let me know how big I am now. Here goes, I now weigh 7 lbs 6 ozs and look better than any gerber baby. Seriously, I''m thinking about doing a photo shoot for "the Rolling Pebble" Some of you will get that and some of you won''t. Alright, back to sleep, just finished my bottle. Gotta run, lots of grandma time tomorrow. Seriously, I can''t wait. Oh yeah, Skylin, where are you? Bye Bye Bye for now.
Alright, Ryland''s daddy here now. This boy won''t let me add my own update to the end sometimes. he fell asleep so, I have free speech now. As Mr Ryland (I wanna tell everyone first), already told you guys. His new formula seems to be helping his reflux alot and is letting him sleep soooo much better. We just wish, we could take all of his pain and congestion from him. Sometimes he wakes up and sounds completely terrible and can''t breathe much at all. Also, we feel like we have become his best pediatrics clinic, at least at this point. Next week, he doesn''t know it yet but, lots of pain are in store. Yep, he will be circumsized on Tuesday. Let''s just hope that, this is done 100% correctly. If not, there will be some serious mess stirred up, thats for sure. also, if anyone out there has a baby with reflux, make sure that it isn''t a food alergy. We aren''t sure that he has bad reflux, as the formula switch has made a drastic difference. also, lots of information can be found on infantreflux.org and understanding how to treat it. Thanks to everyone, who signs the guestbook. We will be keeping this journal and printing out all the guestbook entries. If your name isn''t in there, Ryland will know, when he learns to read and understands what happened with him, at the beginning. To those of you, in my home state of Louisiana, Happy Mardi Gras. Thanks to everyone for the prayers, advice, support, and most importantly, love.
Just thought I would drop in and update everyone on my life. Lately, my acid reflux has been hurting my tummy alot and makes me cry, from the pain. Mommy and daddy are doing everything possible but, it doesn''t seem to help right now. They are taking me to the doctor on Tuesday so, I hope that they can help me out. Mommy also switched me to a different formula, she said something about it was suppose to be easier to poop out or something. Also, I pooped all by myself today, which is the first time in about a week. The last two times, they well, I''m not gonna say what they did but, it helped me poop. Like mommy told everyone, i went to the GI doctor on Friday but, they didn''t really do anything at all for me. Daddy said that they weren''t going to give me the medicine that they gave me, at least not just yet. Anyway, I''m just really tired and my tummy hurts all the time. Well, let''s move on to my Valentine Skylin.
On Saturday, I also received your valentine''s day card and it was sooooo cool. Mommy showed me the picture but, it was a little fuzzy to me. My eyes aren''t working really good, not yet. also, mommy read me what you said about coming to visit. That would be awesome and I know where we could take our family for dinner. This place is very magical and especially made for us, a sweet baby dinner at Cinderella''s Castle. Mommy, told me that daddy took her there a few years ago. When your mommy and daddy are ready to come to Orlando, just let me know and I''ll plan the event. Okay, I''m gonna go, i''m just so excited about, you maybe coming to visit. Daddy said you better hurry, as we are moving from Orlando in less than 9 months. Okay, I''m going now and can''t wait to see my grandma Lila on Monday. Oh yeah, Happy Presidents day to everyone.
That boy is long winded, thats for sure. Ryland has his next eye exam and his weekly pediatrics appointment on Tuesday. My mom will be here and will get to experience some of the dr appointments with us. He is currently on Similac Alumentom and we are going to ask his doctor, if we can switch him to neocate, it is suppose to help alot with reflux. Also, we think he may be having a reaction to the milk based formula. Time will tell and we hope that this is resolved soon. he is in so much pain, he doesn''t even get much sleep. I''m going, to get out of here and talk to Ryland about a few things. he told everyone that I like to flex my muscles in the mirror, thats not true at all. LOL Talk to everyone soon.
Well, today Ryland had yet another Dr. appointment. with the GI doc. Everything looks good we are just keeping him on his Zantac and keeping him elevated as we have been. They gave him Reglan but, Bruce & I aren''t thrilled about using that with all the side affects, he can have so we decided not to go that route yet. Other then that baby boy now weighs 7lbs, yup 7 lbs. I still can''t believe how big he is getting. I swear it''s a dream come true for us. On the other hand I find myself thinking about Railey & Trace ALOT these days. I look at Ryland and just wonder what she/he would look like. I try not to play what happend over in my head but, sometimes I can''t help it. I just miss my little girl so bad. I tend to keep thinking "we are suppose be taking care of 2 babies". I think about how it would all be so different if things didnt go the way they did. Don''t get me wrong I LOVE my little boy and wouldn''t change anything I just wish we could have all 3 of them. Boy, wouldn''t that be fun. ;) Okay, enough venting about what ifs. Ryland has some more doc. appts next week and his Grandma Lila will be here Monday or Tuesday as well so Ryland has a big week coming up and im sure he will take a break to update everyone on whats going on. Right now he''s sleeping away we had a bad night lastnight with the reflux and all so he''s catching up on some sleep today. Okay, Everyone thanks for all the prayers we all appreciate it dearly!
Boy Oh Boy! My life is crazy and sometimes I think, my parents are a little looney too. Alright, lets back track a few days, to last Friday. Mommy and daddy brought me, to the doctor for a checkup. She told me that everything looked great and I was 6 lbs 0 ozs by their scale. Then, we came home and had a peaceful weekend. Daddy tried to get me to ride the dog, as if I was a little cowboy. Mommy told me that daddy was just a little weird and that we just have to learn to live with it. Oh yeah, back to my update. I didn''t poop much so, my parents started to get worried about it. Today, I went back to the doctor and everything still looked great but, i had to get this stuff, to help me poop. Let''s just hope that it all goes south, if you know what I mean. Also, my new current weight is (6 lbs 9 ozs). Tomorrow, I will be sending out my valentines day card, to little miss skylin. She and I will share our very first valentine together. Mommy & daddy didn''t do anything creative yet so, we''ll have to work on it later and just settle for the card for now. When Skylin recieves it, she can post in the guestbook, what it says. If i tell, I might turn red. Okay, i gotta go and check out the new photos of me at home. More updates coming soon.
Alright, its been over a week, since I''ve been able to update you guys. My daddy has been writing updates but, we all know how boring those things can get from time to time. HaHa, that was a joke, lets just hope my daddy gets it too. Let me first say, its good to be back home again. Let''s just hope I can stay for more than 12 hours this time, they took me back to the hospital faster than you could say baby. Seriously, I really only recieved a quick tour of the house and I was back to the hospital. At first, I thought that they didn''t like me or maybe didn''t want me living with them. Boy, I was sooo wrong about that. When I went back to the hospital, mommy never left my side for one whole week. Mommy gave me my baba every single time and changed my diaper every single time. Daddy was sick and couldn''t be around me, because he didn''t want to pass anything on to me. Let me also say, I''m so glad to see my daddy again. Many people say that I look alot like him but, I am sooo much cuter than him. HaHa, thats another joke, daddy wants me to have a sense of humor. Okay, let''s see what all is going on with me now. It seems like the RSV has calmed down a little bit and I''m starting to have less and less of the reflux stuff lately. Actually, I''m starting to feel fat now and I''m thinking about joining "weight "watchers", to see if I can lose some of this baby fat. When I was born, I was all muscle but, I''m starting to get a bit chunky. Mommy even calls me her chunky monkey, I don''t find that very funny at this point. Well, if I''m a monkey, she is part monkey or at least one of my parents are part of the primate family. HaHa, there is another funny joke, hope they agree. Mommy is showering and daddy is making a muscle in the mirror, trying to pretend he is superman or something. I''m just hoping that he doesn''t pull out a cape and try to fly. if so, I better tell mommy, to keep the 911 phone number handy. Okay, enough jokes for now. Can everyone tell that I am feeling much better???
Happy Valentine''s Day to everyone out there and especially my Valentine "Skylin". Big hearts and hugs to you, my sweet valentine. We need to exchange mailing addresses so, I can send you a hand and foot print V Day card. This way, you can see how big I''m getting. Get your mommy to send my mommy your address and I''ll do the same. Just for reference, I can barely wear the preemie diapers now.
Alright, lets see what is planned for the upcoming week. I had an eye appointment on Tuesday that I had to miss, due to my hospital stay. My doctor came and saw me on Wednesday though so, that was very cool. My eyes are still stage 1 zone 2 rop and haven''t gotten worse yet, keeping my fingers crossed. Mommy is going, to make me a pediatrician appointment, for in the morning. Hopefully, the doctor wil be able to give me all kinds of help. I''m eating around 60 cc''s every three hours and sometimes more, it just depends on how hungry my tummy gets. Oh yeah, I sent mommy a teddy bear, chocolates, and a balloon to her at the hospital yesterday. When she was knapping, I grabbed the phone and mommys credit card, and sent her a gift. She has no idea, how much it costs but, the credit card bill, will show it all. That''s alright, it made her really happy and daddy explained that it was all my idea and daddy didn''t have any part of it. All I know is that I heard mommy eating the candy at night. Well, I''m probably getting pretty boring so, I will check in again tomorrow, after one of my 8 feedings. Thank you, to everyone who prays for me and reads my updates. I wish I could send everyone a big kiss and squeeze them tightly. Talk to everyone soon.
Howdy! Ryland is still in the hospital but, should be coming home tomorrow. Yep, he still has RSV but, it isn''t causing him much trouble at this point. Basicly, he is stuffy and its causing him to breathe a little faster than normal. Rylands tiny lungs are still clear and still hasn''t developed any fever. This morning, he had his eye exam and both eyes are still stage 1 zone 2 rop. That''s great news, things are still the same and aren''t getting worse. The big news is that, his choking spells are caused by his severe acid reflux. Ryland will be receiving zantac, for his reflux. If anyone has any experience with this, let us know about it in the guestbook. Once we get him back home, we''ll be uploading new photos and videos for everyone. Currently, our little man weighs in at 6 lbs 2 ozs. He''s getting bigger than the list of reality shows on tvm, or at least it seems that way. LOL We''re just continuing prayer, so that our baby boy will get over this sickness and can feel normal. That''s all for now and wil update again soon. Sorry for the delay in updates but, things have been pretty much the same, since the last update. More coming soon!